Tonight I miss you and I can't shake it. Most nights I can. I can tell myself that the day has passed and it's one day closer to you or that we're almost half way to being together again. Not tonight, no... not tonight. Tonight I can't help but miss your smile. Your smile that infects my entire being. Your smile that, even after almost 4 years of seeing it, still gives me that fluttery "I can't believe he's mine" feeling. Tonight I miss your hands. Your hands that can change my entire mood with a single brush of my skin. Your hands that hold mine and make me feel at ease. Tonight I miss your laugh. Your laugh that fills our entire house with happiness. Your laugh that usually comes at awful awkward times, but still manages to make me laugh as well. Tonight I miss your voice. Your voice that soothes me and calms me even when I'm at my worst. Tonight I miss you being here. I miss your hug and your touch and your kiss and just the energy you bring into my life. Tonight I miss every single thing that I love most about you, because sometimes, Skype just isn't enough. Sometimes, you just need to feel it and really feel it to feel okay. Tonight is not a good night. It's a bad one. Tonight is the kind of night that all military wives have every once in a while and that's okay. It's okay to have nights like tonight, because it's nights like tonight, when I miss you so much it hurts, that remind me why I fell in love with you in the first place. It's these little quirks and traits of yours that make waiting for you so hard and yet so worth it at the same time.
How lucky I am to have somebody to miss so much.
