Today I need the motivation to just be the bigger person and brush it off. I tend to have a hard time with this lately. With B. being gone, it seems like I'm always on edge. The second somebody does something to me that I'd never do to them in return, I automatically go into "Amazon woman eat their heart on a silver platter" mode. I need to not do that. I need the will power and understanding to say, "Amanda, not every body is you. Not every body values their friends the way you do. Bring it down. They will learn." I need to step back and see that people are human and they do make mistakes, but I also wonder where the line of "mistake" is exactly drawn at? Either way. My motivation for the day comes from a simple saying, "The first to apologize is the bravest. The first to forgive is the strongest. And the first to forget, is the happiest."
I want to be that happy. I want to be able to just let it go. Let it be. Let it float away and away from me, because ain't nobody got time for that! I'm too entirely blessed with so much more happiness than I am burdened with such petty high school drama that unfortunately surrounds me and even more unfortunately, always will. Maybe it's me, maybe I have a sign somewhere that begs to be followed with nonsense, but that's fine. Today I am certain that I will rise about it all and over come and see a better tomorrow. Maybe tomorrow I won't be as confident, but I'm going to write this Motivational Monday down as a win.
