You'll always be my little girl.

  I don't know why it's taken me so long to realize that my oldest baby girl is actually growing up, but the past few days have been a real eye opener to the obvious. Lily is going to be five. Lily is going to start Kindergarten on August 19, 2013. Lily isn't such a little baby any more and she's turning into my little girl. This afternoon I got lily's pre-k graduation pictures (white cap and gown included, thanks Goddard, once again holding it down.... you rock and I don't think I'll ever be able to say it enough!)

Hello senior yearbook embarrassingly cute
picture!

and I think that a combination of that closure to this chapter of her life and the registering her of Kindergarten, which will open a new chapter, just really freaked me out. It dawned on me that I'm contributing to the upbringing of the next generation of women. I am responsible for the outcome of two little girls and what their future paths might hold. I don't know why I never thought of it before or why it's hitting me now when it's always been right in front of me, but it did and I'm not sure I'm processing it in the best ways possible. It really kind of makes me want to cry honestly. It's not just Lily growing up, it's Emory too. Bryce pointed out tonight that soon, we're going to be out of the diaper phase and into the terrible twos stage. I wonder if this is something all moms go through or if this is just me and my over active mind being over active again. Which it most likely is. *le sigh* Slow down Lily, you have your whole life to grow up, stay my sweet and sassy little princess for a while, mommy likes you this way.
  The past few days have been kind of mundane and honestly not a lot has been going on. I hate using this thing as basically a public diary, because if you follow me on Facebook..... you already know all of this stuff and nobody needs to know it twice. I did get to attend a pretty sweet ice cream social that Lily's amazeballs school held today. I thought it was going to be just the teachers dishing out ice cream for us, I was wrong. They legit hired a company to come in a server ice cream, toppings and all, to us... for no other reason than they felt like doing it. Have I mentioned I'm going to miss her school? Not that I'll have to miss it for long, because I'm about 99% sure we're sending Emory there as well. I think she'd like that and I think I'd like it too, hello mommy free time! We have a whole bunch of nothing planned for this weekend actually and I'm really looking forward to it. I might try and squeeze in a massage since my awesome husband came home with a free hour long massage voucher from when he volunteered for the MS walk the other day. Have I mentioned I love that man? because I do. He's the bee's knees y'all.
  Lately I've been doing a lot of blog thinking, like what I can do to improve it, I mean... I've had it for about two years now and haven't changed it up much. I kind of want to reach out on a more personal basis to other milsos (military spouses). I know that we can all use a heap of support from time to time and having new ideas regarding care packages, deployment sign ideas and what not is always a good form of support and can really take a burden off of some of us when we need it most. Let me tell you, I became the care package queen while Bryce was away and if I can do anything to help somebody with ideas, you bet your sweet ass I will, because if you put as much time, effort, love and blood into those things as I did.... it can be exhausting. Worth it, but exhausting. I think I might make a DIY/Crafty section as well, because I get a lot of "HOW IN THE HELL AMANDA!?!" when I make things and well, honestly I like to share my crafty knowledge, because I know how awesome it feels when you finish something and you're like, "Yeah bro, I made that this. COME AT ME POTTERY BARN! AINT NOBODY GOT TIME FOR YOU!" So there's that and I can't wait to revamp this bad boy, i need a change and to stop talking about me so much.... (says the girl that named her blog the Amanda Show...), because I'm kind of boring. NO SHAME IN MY GAME Y'ALL!

I was gonna put one up of the goodies, but I wanted to show
how awesome the spider webs looked! He loved it
and so did the rest of his shop haha

  Alright, it's much later than when I originally started this post, like 5 hours later. Now that dinner time and bed time are accomplished for the littlest Mande ladies, it's time for this Mande lady to wake up her over studied grandpa of a husband and get him into bed. Here's to hoping tomorrow is as relaxing as today was. Sleep well blogger world, I know that for once I will.

Night Y'all!

<3

-Amanda